An employment opportunity has arisen that I might be interested in. And quite possibly qualified for. And might remotely be good at. This would be at a place I’m intimately familiar with. I grew up just down the street, and the grounds was a popular place to walk, ride bikes, hang out and just “be”. We had school field trips and retreats there. I went to college there, met my husband there, and eventually received two degrees from there. Its where my husband works, and my son goes to daycare. Its a REALLY good place to be. I have professors and other respected professionals who are willing to serve as references. Its a 3 minute drive from my house. It pays actual money. I will apply for it.
HOWEVER: I do have that internal monologue asking me what could I possibly be thinking, wondering if I really have what it takes to do the job. What if I FAIL–either at the interview or the job itself? I have a good thing going where I am now. My boss will be disappointed and stressed. I am treated and paid well. I do a job that I believe is worth doing, and makes a difference for people. I have scads of flexibility and great time-off benefits. I am trusted. Even though there are times when I’m terribly irritated, overall, I’m quite comfortable where Iam. Don’t rock the boat. Don’t rock the boat. I should just stay where I am.
Quitting jobs has never been an easy thing for me. Even thinking about quitting a job makes me anxious.
Yet, here I am. Wish me luck.